Really Proud Somehow

"Don't worry, miss. I'll catch you."

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So proud of managing to draw it as so >w<
It was originally in a day setting but somehow I tweaked and tweaked with the background, it became night and looked better that way.
Taiwan's hair was a bitch to do because it was flowing against her body due to the wind coming from behind her. I've always wanted to draw a pose like that. Seriously.
It was my new passion for thin linearts that troubled me a lot but I went through it anyway.
Took 3 days on and off but I'm happy with how it turned out.

Hey, it has a decent background at least. I always fail at those.

Textures are all my own. Clouds are default option in PS CS3
Do not reupload, distribute, use without my consent. All copyrights belong to their respective owners:

Taiwan, Italy (c) Himaruya Hidekazu
Art (c) Feshnie

Mein Gott Flash

Last Tuesday, in my Multimedia Authoring class, Aina-kun tinkered with my laptop and came upon my unfinished Mein Gott karaoke.
She was impressed, I must say and asked me a few things like:
How'd I make Prussia move, how did I insert the song, how did I time the words to fit the song.
I tried answering as best as I could and even offered to show how to her.

The unexpected came though when she suddenly stood up and loudly called for Ms. Xuan to see it.
I was very flustered!
The animations weren't right, the timing wasn't quite well and it wasn't even halfway done!
I tried in vain to stop her but she blocked me from reaching my laptop
The pains of being short!
and so, she showed it to Ms. Xuan
It's a bit like this:

It first started with a title flash "Mein Gott / Band version"
Before ^happens
With the same pictures, the words "It's fun to play alone" is revealed
"..." appears big and clear one by one

Then comes this

Ha. Ha!. The. Great. Me. Doesn't Care.
It appears one by one as well

One by one HAHA! comes to screen until a very big one covers the middle of the screen

"Let's Begin" appears
Himaruya originally drew a chibi!america but I retraced it to be chibi!Prussia

This is the first animation to appear.
Chibi Prussia appears from under below left screen, walks a bit forward and writes his name
Then he goes back.
I drew the animation myself, using lots of keyframes

Let the karaoke-ing begin!

This was from the third volume~!

Same here...most pictures are from Himaruya's own works.

Original picture by Himaruya was of Iggy
retraced to fit Prussia

Okay...I'm tired of screencaping. This was the other animation I did. It was of Prussia running from the left screen and dissappearing to the right.
There's more afterwards but...nah...
I'm too lazy.

So anyway, Ms. Xuan watched what I had done so far and she turned to me, asking, "Did you take Animation Technique?"
And I answered, "No."
and she told me she also taught Animation Technique and I should take it next sem.
W00t! Another semester with Ms. Xuan~! I can't wait!
I seriously like her class. I just do.
A few seconds later when I was just beginning to settle down and berate Aina-kun for getting me so flustered and anxious, Ms. Xuan came to me and held out her pendrive while she said, "Can you give me that vid? I like it. I might show it in (animation technique) class."
Can you imagine how I felt at that time?
I was speechless, happy, flustered, nervous, excited and pretty much just <333

On hindsight, it was all thanks to Aina-kun. She was rubbing it in my face BTW.
Haha...yes, thank you, Aina.

Real Face done.
And I found out I got Spain and China switched. Hyuhyu~
Ah well. Spain looks more in character with that pose...
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I should finish that karaoke and never post it.

Didn't Make It

As the title says it,
This month's issue of Gempak indeed did not contain my drawing.

Turns out, I didn't make it. For both sections no less. I did cry a bit. I mean, it wasn't something really big but I really gave it my all with the details and to know that it didn't make it was pretty heartbreaking.

But today was my sis' bday and I didn't have the heart to ruin it for her. I'm going to work harder and send some more. Still pretty hopeful. The thing itself won't earn me big bucks or something of grandeur but it would boost my self-esteem I just know it.

If you're curious about what that two drawings that didn't make it look like, here's a preview of sorts:

On the left is the one for the 'OK ka KO' section. This section was in this month's issue but none of it contained that earphone girl.
On the right is the one for the 'hitamputih' section where they preferebly want you to draw characters from fandom. So I chose Hetalia. This work contains approximately 11 characters based on Himaruya's work. It was also the first time I drew Norway-san and I really loved this piece the most for its overall completed-ness. This month's issue did not contain 'hitamputih' section.

Maybe in a week, I'll get myself a new pen and get down to improving my lining abilities. God knows I need severe help and practice in that department.

I'm trying to be optimistic about all this. Thinking the drawing got lost in the mail makes me feel ten times worst than being rejected. Strangely though.

Even though it didn't make it, I'm still thankful of the support friends and family have given me.
It never was easy for me to give others my art that is filled so much with my love and dedication.
I hope it doesn't stop me.
The me who has always given up easily; I want to let that go and move forward
Become who I've always wanted to be.

I'm sorry, Okaa-san. I still spilled tears after all but like everything else that fell upon this fragile shoulders, I'll learn to get over it. There is still a future I want to reach for.

Added bonus!
My current desktop looks like this:

...is because I'm proud of it.
It wasn't easy drawing and colouring it. Trust me.
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Jibun, Ganbatte Aru!

Why Does it Need a Title?

Believe it or not, I think nee-san doesn't actually understand how to plan
ANYTHING.
You see, at the moment - perhaps as of last night
I was in turmoil over her event assignment.
overrated use of expression
I thought I was going to have that - oh! - extremely easy job of typing into MS powerpoint and probably a little English editing.
But no.
When I asked her, "Did you plan it yet? The timetable and everything?"
She had the decency to look blankly at me.

Gah. If she wasn't feeling so unwell, I would've lectured her till midnight about planning and actually coming up with SOMETHING!
I have this stupid feeling that she thinks everything will come into order if she sat in front of the laptop, staring at the blank slides.
Previously, I had even mentioned to her - probably gritted out to her that
YOU HAVE TO WRITE IT ON PAPER DAMMIT!
with me being all Romano
...and she goes ahead and DOESN'T do it.
*facepalm*

I'm still the younger sister.
and Okaa-san said I should help.
T_________________T

Thankfully,
I had something good happen to me recently.
I managed to talk a bit with my friend, Shiro-kun. Gosh, we haven't met in ages!
To my greatest surprise, she also knew Hetalia. Though she only watched the anime.

Last year - around December probably,
Senpai(Shiro-kun's sister) and I were face-booking together. I showed her one of Himaruya's christmas present to his fans
Somehow, from there I started to get her into Hetalia, showing pictures of this and that person.
Most of it being Im Young Soo.
I guess she managed to convince Shiro-kun to watch it too and now they've watched it to the recent episode.
They were all only 5 minutes long after all.

nearly 60% of our conversation was about Kuroshitsuji and Hetalia.
Lol
She was a bit surprised that I really adore Ivan and that Lovino and Feliciano shared the same seiyuu. I also told her that if she listened properly to Feli's voice, she'll see that it was Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle's Fye.
Matthew and Alfred also shared the same seiyuu as D.Gray-man's Komui Lee.
I had a good laugh when I found out. Oh, the crazy similarities!

I wasn't sure if she actually knew this but, I am most shocked with Kiku's seiyuu.
He actually did the voice of KHR's S.Squalo
Y'know, the guy who goes "VOOOOOOOOOIIII!!!!!!!!!"
I had a hard time imagining Kiku like that but it was fun.

My favourite is still the Switzerland-Liechtenstein team~
Romi Paku and Kugimiya Rie
It's like Edward and Alphonse all over again. Family ties and all

I kind of ruined the fun and told Shiro-kun that Iggy's seiyuu was William T Spears in Kuroshitsuji.
She was like, "OMG HONTOU?!!!"
And I was like, "Yeah, hontou aru!"

Shiro-kun, let's meet up and go on a date this May and we'll eat donuts and talk about European History.
(*`v'*)~**
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I, like, am so into RoChu now
even Naruto can't believe it!

Bel far niente

My title, it means "The Beauty of Doing Nothing"
in Italian

Recently, out of a longing to rekindle an old love that I had probably shoved too far away from me welcomed me in the form of a white paperback book with the simple title "Eat Pray Love"



It wasn't until I lifted it up, turned to the back and read the simple synopsis that something within me awakened to tell me that this thing - book, to be more precise - was something I wanted to have.
Everyone should know that feeling. I have always learned to shy away from it.
An infinite longing that I didn't know I possessed and as I think now, it might have been because dearest nee-san was always unknowingly probing me back into the world of literature.
A world where I was an acquaintance of but still a lot alien to.
This spontaneous feeling - how mother always lectured us about it - had me going doe-eyed, a silent hoping to buy it.

It is pretty unclear even to myself as to why I had wanted so badly to purchase this 4-days-worth-of-food-money book but I knew I really wanted to have it.
This will earn me a good scolding, I somehow just know it.

This love for reading novels, I always knew it never belonged to me. One of my few hobbies sadly didn't include reading. It included drawing, singing with bad vocals and perhaps even 'Bel Far Niente' as some uneventful evening passes. So it was a welcome surprise to know that I got attracted so easily to this book by Elizabeth Gilbert. It was also somewhat non-fiction and I pretty much dislike those kinds of books.

So why did I buy it? Maybe it was because it was written in such a way that it touched my heart yet tickled my funny bone. That is, I finally found out, possible in a book as it is in every other form of media.

A not quite distant memory of a book called 'Anne of Green Gables' appeared in my mind as of late. It was a novel that a close friend, a good friend until now I hope, lent me. It was a wonderful and unimaginable read. The younger me of three years ago didn't quite understand all of it. Anne was too much of a dreamy girl with unthinkable imagination and witty atmosphere and it was all quite a lot for me.

But I knew I love it. I knew I loved every page of it.
Even when the passages were but coils of fancy word that I understood little of.

I do hope one day I will be able to re-read it.
And be able to string the words together into a fanciful garden of beauty imagination just as young Anne had.
Something perhaps close to l'arte d'arrangiarsi?
(the art of making something out of nothing)

I perhaps will leave that matter in the hands of destiny and concentrate on what I should do now that classes are about to start. It is; tomorrow being the most recent.
A few housemates - two in actuality - are going to be taking French this year; a language most would call 'The Language of Romance'. I do hope to barge into their French study time and learn a few words of that language.
This is all in the name of extensive knowledge and not because one of the major characters in Hetalia is pervert French-nii-chan.
I do hope to learn a little more Italian since it is, in contrast to French, 'The Language of Beauty'
which, in accordance to the way it's country arranged the words, is very ironic.
Non è vero?
The way Elizabeth Gilbert describes Italy in all its good and bad, even Sicily, makes me really want to go see the country.
But for artistic reasons as opposed to her more stomach-filling reasons.

A dream is a nice thing to have.

Did everyone read up to here?
All my love and deepest thanks to those who did.
I do wonder if I should continue writing such long and boring entries in the future? Filled with unneeded words and too much thoughts.
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Himaruya described Italy and Romano well
*faints*

I'm a Fangirl; Live With It

The only time when Google Translate is the awesomest tool alive is when it tells you what you want to know correctly and in a different language!
Yes!
This is because I was playing with Google Translate just a while ago.
I remember there was a time the Awesome Pa(originally known as Uncle S)
but we should, like, totally call him Vati or something...
said to us 'Arrivederci' just as we were parting

I don't think my sisters took note of this even though I was practically squealing, 'OMG! Didn't Mukuro like totally said that? That's, like, goodbye or something.'
Why yes, KHR's Mukuro did say that.
What I didn't realize at that time was that 'Arrivederci' was Italian for goodbye.
ASDADFLJLJDL:LK!!!!!!
Pa lives in Germany lol. Isn't it supposed to be 'Auf Wiedersehen' instead or something?
Double ASKDJ;KJFDSF!!!!
Doitsu and Italia people!
I'm a freakin' Axis Powers Hetalia fangirl!!!!

OTL

Yes, that's my sad life.

Other than that sad excuse of an entry introduction, I want to tell everyone that I'm taking 5 subjects this new semester.
4 of them being theory subjects
meaning I'll have to sit down for 4 papers
and 1 of them being Malaysian Studies
Now I can educationally use Genius Himaruya-san's Hetalia characters.
this shall be included with evil laughter BWAHAHAHAHA

orz

I want my laptop back.
Like totally.
...and I should attempt to stop immitating Poland
...and stop thinking Korea will ever be accepted by Koreans
...and that he should attempt to touch Hong Kong
...I sh'ld als' sto' mess'gin w'th people i' Su-san's slang
coz no one like totally understand what I'm, like, going about or something.
...I should also keep drawing G-rated stuff
...and never go 3 levels higher when there is another person present.
...and stop being such a tsundere to my young prince T^T
...
OTL
I should do that T^T
All of that.

E così...
oooooh~!!! Go to google translate now! That was Italian!
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Arrivederci, minna!

HBD Anis-chan!

Tomorrow is New Years Eve already!

I'm closer to being 19!
somehow...the feel of it is pretty...
T^T
I'm also getting closer to the date I have to give up the laptop to fix the screen. So I spared some time, more like 3 hours, to finish the pic for Anis-chan's belated birthday
and also to pressure her with finishing mine
X3
But to understand exactly why I chose to draw what I drew, you have to listen to this:

It...scared the heck out of me actually even though it wasn't that scary
I'm weak to surprises and those kind of dolls
But I listened to it anyway since her request was to draw whatever came to mind.
So here it is!:

Pretty crappy actually
I apologize for that sorry excuse of a staircase...
T_____________T
But the story behind producing this simple picture is quite...so and so
First of all, Hetalia fans must've noted that they're not wearing their usual clothes right?
That's because they're not.
When I stalked Himaruya-san's blog, I also found these that he filed as 'kodo___'

It's not really the same though, right?
T^T
but I really did try and I seem to have developed proportion identifying problem or something.
The fanart this time actually required me to do some research.
Do you see those flowery things on Poland and Liet's shirt?
I thought at first it was roses but then it looked too squigly to be roses. With that in mind, I googled 'Poland flower' or something like that.
Poland's National Flower is Corn Poppy. I was pretty excited when I found out.
Typical fangirl -_-;;

Corn poppy
Liet on the other hand, I couldn't seem to find his national flower even when I googled 'Lithuania flower'. I even looked it up in Lithuania's wiki
found out something else instead
Russia has invaded the vital regions 0wo!
Then, I nearly facepalm-ed when I remember Himaruya providing their biographies in volume 2
It read Common Rue
but once I googled Common Rue images, the flowers turn out to be yellow in colour.

Common Rue
So where the heck did those blue flowers come from?
In the end, I told myself, 'Poland must have corrupted Liet' and googled 'blue poppy' instead.
So yeah, everyone will have to just live with that.
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I'll have to do stuff like these more often

Paperchild Italy

Isn't Italy such a fun character?
Special thanks to nee-chan who lent me her hand
lol

When I stalked Himaruya-san's blog,
I saw that he did quite a number of these paperchilds.
Here are some examples:

Lol, Himaruya-san is playing with Austria's Mariazell^^
Austria-san doesn't look like he likes it though

Italy-kun having a siesta!
and Himaruya even drew his clothes lol!

this one is the one I like the most though >w< check it out! Way to go SuFin cosplayers!
You really made my day!
There's also another one!
Aren't they all just the cutest?!
There's still some more paperchilds I haven't shown yet but that'll be a surprise >_~
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I wanna make more!