Is it okay? To like you?


Iindesuka, iindesuka, konna ni hito wo suki ni natteiindesuka?
Iindesuka, iindesuka, konna ni hito wo shinjitemo iindesuka?

Daikobutsu wa ne, tori no karaage, sara ni ieba uchi no okan ga tsukuru tori no an kake, demo doremo katenai omanya kanawanai
Omae ga okazunaraba, ore wa donburi de 50 pai karuku gohan okawari dekiru yo dakedomo nna koto iu to
"Jaa, yattemite" toka katte omae wa iidasukedo
Sore wa akumademo tatoeno hanashide arimashite, daremo yareto iwarerya
Oidon mo otoko na wake de, shirano wa samui wake de
Omae ga suki na wake de, chobitto demo wakattemoraitai wake de
Chinamini, okazu tte henna imi janainde, kirai ni naranaide ne

Iindesuka, iindesuka, konna ni hito wo suki ni natteiindesuka?
Iindesuka, iindesuka, konna ni hito wo shinjitemo iindesuka?

Iindesuyo, iindesuyo, anata ga eranda hito naraba
Iindesuyo, iindesuyo, annta ga eranda michi naraba

Imamade ore wa nankai omae wo nakasetanndarou?
Sore ni kurabete nankai warawasete yaretandarou?

Sara ni wa ureshi nakitteiu awase wa waza mo omae wa
Machi awase te iru kara yokei wakannakunanndayo

"Gomenne" to "arigatou" wo kurikaesebaiindayo
Sono hiritsu gobu to gobu ni kagiri naku chikaikedo
Tatoeba kyuujuu kyuuman kyuusen kyuuhyaku kuujuukyuu (999999) kaizutsu de saigo no shunkann wo mukaeta to shiyou
"Arigatou" no kachi wa mou machigaenai
Kanarazu ya toutatsu suru yo hyakumankai (1000000) kai
Dattesa, dattesa, dattedattedatte sa
Datte ore no kono yo no saigo no kotoba wa anata ni iu "arigatou"

Iindesuka, iindesuka, konna ni hito wo suki ni natteiindesuka?
Iindesuka, iindesuka, konna ni nomeri konjatte iindesuka?

Iindesuyo, iindesuyo, anata ga nozonda hito naraba
Iindesuyo, iindesuyo, annta ga nozonda michi naraba

Anata to iru imi wo sagashitara, ashita wo ikiru kotae ni natta yo
Ashita wo ikiru imi wo sagashitara, anata to iru kotae ni natta yo

Iindesuka, iindesuka, konna ni hito wo suki ni natteiindesuka?
Iindesuka, iindesuka, konna ni hito wo shinjitemo iindesuka?

Iindesuyo, iindesuyo, anata ga eranda hito naraba
Iindesuyo, iindesuyo, mushiro sou de atte hoshindesu yo

Iindesuka, Iindesuka, konna ni hito wo suki ni natteiindesuka
Iindesuyo Iindesuyo
Anata ga eranda hito naraba
Anata ga aishita hito naraba
Anata ga nozonda hito naraba


Is it okay, is it okay,
Is it okay for me to like someone this much?
Is it okay, is it okay,
Is it okay for me to believe in someone this much?

My favorite food is fried chicken
Oh, and also my mom's homemade chicken with ankake sauce,
But neither of them can win, neither rival you.
If you were the meal, then I could have
50 helpings of donburi - though if I say that,
You'll say something like "well then, try it,"
But that was all just a metaphor.
Well if I'm told to do it, since I'm a man,
Since Furano is cold, since I like you,
Since I want you to understand me just a little bit...
By the way, I don't mean anything weird by "meal," so don't hate me, okay?

It's okay, it's okay, if it's the person you've chosen.
It's okay, it's okay, if it's the path you've chosen.

I wonder how many times I've made you cry?
And compared to that, how many times I've been able to make you smile?

Moreover, you happen to have that combination technique
Where you cry with happiness, so I lose track of the rest.

I should just repeat "I'm sorry" and "Thank you".
The ratio is pretty evenly 50-50,
But if for example, I've said each 999,999 times and I'm facing my last moment,
"Thank you" will win for sure,
It'll definitely reach that one millionth time.
Because, because, because because because,
Because the last words I'll say in this world will be "thank you" to you.

Is it okay, is it okay,
Is it okay for me to like someone this much?
Is it okay, is it okay,
Is it okay for me to fall this hard?

It's okay, it's okay, if it's the person you desire.
It's okay, it's okay, if it's the path you desire.

When I searched for the meaning of being with you, the answer was to live through tomorrow.
When I searched for the meaning of living through tomorrow, the answer was to be with you.

It's okay, it's okay, if it's the person you love.
It's okay, it's okay...

It's okay, it's okay, if it's the person you've chosen.
It's okay, it's okay, I'd actually rather you be that way.

Is it okay, is it okay,
Is it okay for me to like someone this much?
It's okay, it's okay,
If it's the person you've chosen,
If it's the person you love,
If it's the person you desire.
It's simple and cute
a reason to love

Hetalia Character Quiz

My newest love: Axis Powers Hetalia!
The anime that makes you love history!

Taken from NekoNeko-chi!
Uh...well...I didn't ask her for it yet but...but...but...*wails*

Continuing on!

Which Hetalia Character Are You?

The Axis Powers

North Italy (Vargas Feliciano)

[ ] You were bullied a lot in your childhood
[ ] You adore pasta, pizza, cheese, and fruit.
[x] You're very happy-go-lucky
[x] You constantly have a dozy look on your face as if you're always away with the fairies
[x] You have a long curly strand of hair that always tends to stick up
[ ] You're a good artist
[x] You can be clumsy
[ ] You have a friend you always depend upon if you mess up something
[ ] If your life was in danger, you would do the typical Italian thing and say: "PLEASE DON'T KILL ME! I HAVE RELATIVES IN YOUR COUNTRY!"
[ ] You would surrender in a war situation


Germany (Ludwig)

[ ] You're very stoic and serious
[ ] Sausages are your favourite foods.
[ ] You like to walk dogs/your dog
[ ] Your boss/principal/tutor/home-room teacher is a nut-case.
[x] You love rules and think they should always be followed to
[x] You think the world would be better if everyone played by the rules
[ ] You work very hard too hard...
[x] Your alone time is your 'happy time'
[ ] You can appear tough but be very considerate towards people
[x] You've had issues with money once or twice


Japan (Kiku Honda)

[ ] You're very mature
[ ] You think everything over before saying it.
[ ] You believe in ghosts but aren't phased by the experience when you see one
[x] You isolated yourself during childhood
[ ] You became very successful in a short amount of time
[x] You are somewhat inexperienced when it comes to the outside world
[x] You can seem cold/aloof to other people
[x] You're good at practical tasks
[x] You need time to adjust to new people


The Allies

The United States of America (Alfred F. Jones)

[ ] You love hamburgers
[ ] You think you're awesome
[ ] You love to invent things
[x] You love going to the cinema/watching films/making films
[ ] You can seem to be very brash to other people
[ ] You have a tendency to stick your nose into other peoples' business
[x] You're terrified of ghosts
[x] You know aliens exist
[ ] You tend to wear a bomber jacket all the time
[x] You wear glasses


The United Kingdom of England, Wales, Scotland, and Northern Ireland (Arthur Kirkland)

[x] You like tea
[ ] You were quite tough and troublesome as a kid
[x] You're very sarcastic and cynical
[x] Your cooking is awful
[ ] You love spiritual magical stuff, such as fairies, ghosts...
[ ] ...But you refuse to believe in aliens.
[ ] You have tried doing black magic before
[ ] You get drunk quite easily.
[ ] When you are drunk, you tend to be very unhappy
[ ] You're good at embroidery


France (Francis Bonnefoy)

[ ] You're very affectionate
[ ] You think you have a great fashion sense
[ ] You like wine (I don't drink alcohol)
[ ] You're the master of whispering romantic things into peoples' ears
[x] You love red roses
[ ] When it comes to l'amour, you don't mind men or women
[ ] You're very proud of yourself
[x] You love culture and the arts
[ ] You're very flamboyant
[ ] You say you're a gourmet


Russia (Ivan Braginski)

[x] You had a very sad childhood.
[ ] You're very tall
[x] You have a tendency to switch between personalities
[ ] You wear a scarf all the time
[x] You love sunflowers
[ ] You love vodka
[x] You can seem intimidating to other people
[ ] You're very strong
[x] You have a big nose
[x] You have a strange laugh that can scare people


China (Wong Yao)

[ ] You're very mature
[x] You're very superstitious
[x] You're very religious
[x] You love pandas
[ ] You love cooking so much that you nag if food has a certain pattern of tastes
[ ] You love Hello Kitty (despise them)
[ ] You try to be a role-model for your brothers/sisters/whatever, but are never taken seriously.
[x] You work hard
[x] You're good at drawing (I guess?)
[x] You like sweets


And now for some other countries!

Austria (Roderich Edelstein)

[ ] You are very well-raised
[ ] You're polite
[ ] You love classical music
[x] You like cake
[ ] You have a mole on your face
[x] You dedicate your time to your hobbies rather than what needs to be done right away
[ ] You are a virtuoso/play very well on at least one instrument
[ ] You've composed music before
[x] You tend to call people 'morons'
[x] You wear glasses


Canada (Matthew Williams)

[x] You're often ignored by people
[ ] You look younger than you actually are
[ ] You love hockey
[ ] You love polar bears
[x] You hate fighting
[ ] You have one strand of curly hair, like Italy
[x] You often get mistaken for someone else
[x] You feel under-appreciated
[x] You're bilingual
[ ] You always carry a bear with you



[ ] You smoke
[ ] You're very physically strong
[ ] You've won a lot of fist-fights
[ ] In your social circle, there are two brothers - you get along with one, but not with the other.
[ ] You have very strong emotions about a variety of topics
[ ] You like hot weather
[x] You can be very friendly from time to time
[ ] You look very tough on the outside
[ ] You make a very nice role-model
[ ] You don't let people get a word in edgeways


Hungary (Erszebet Hédeváry)

[x] You have a potty-mouth
[ ] You like to wear flowers in your hair
[ ] You used to be a very tough kid
[ ] You're very reliable
[x] It's better to have you as a friend rather than an enemy
[x] You're very faithful
[x] Your speech and mannerisms can be considered very unladylike
[x] You and your best friend go together like chalk and cheese.
[x] You are graceful one moment and grinning like a maniac the next
[x] If someone yells that yaoi is going on somewhere, you will drop everything to run off to go and see it.


Lithuania (Toris Lorinaitis)

[x] You're very loyal
[x] You feel like your best friend drags you around a lot, but you both have a great time together
[ ] You're very serious
[ ] You have a lot of patience (not really)
[x] You think too much about philosophical stuff
[x] You get depressed when questioning the point of existing/the universe, etc..
[x] You're not very confident
[ ] You were quite rebellious as a child
[ ] People tend to walk all over you
[x] You're a born worrier


Poland (Feliks Lukasiewicz)

[ ] You're very flamboyant
[x] You're quite hyperactive
[x] You can be quite goofy
[ ] When you're depressed, you tend to rise out of it like a phoenix
[ ] You're very wary of strangers
[x] It takes you ages to come out of your shell
[x] However, when you're used to someone, you're very chatty
[x] You're very forceful and stand at one end of the argument when it comes to your opinions
[ ] You love pansies and corn-poppies
[x] You get up to lots of crazy antics


Prussia (Gilbert Weillschmidt)

[ ] You're quite mean-spirited
[ ] You're a bit of a hooligan
[x] You're very loyal
[ ] You're very good at tactics
[ ] You hate Russia
[ ] You love to fight people
[ ] You can avoid marriages quite well
[x] You're not always taken seriously
[ ] You like drinking
[x] You want to become stronger


Highest score: Hungary(7/10)
What the...

Well...atleast I'm not Russia(though I wanted England)

Other Places and Me

Because I'm not wearing one now!
okay, just joking. I'm wearing a skirt so please keep your head safely out of the gutter
or as nee-san likes to think: dam

So, I'm updating for the lulz.
No, wait. Not entirely.
I have a point somewhere in here
It's just not sharp enough.

Just a few minutes ago, I've been prt sc-ing some sites I frequent.
I visited my livejournal acount and noticed that I haven't been updating there for quite some time. Just look at the date:

Definitely [So Long...Ago]
That was my last post.
Lol, Allen shouldn't look like that. Yuu wouldn't like it if he makes other girls turn into a fangirl.

I kind of miss looking for LJ icons like this one that makes me giggle.
Okay, this one is a bit PG-rated. lol
I used to look around for Suju icons. Especially the funny ones.
It's a 100X100 so it doesn't take much space in my HD.
Ah...good memories.

Oh yeah!
I changed my myspace layout to have a KHR theme. It looks rather plain so I've reached my objective.
I've also uploaded pictures. Haha
Come visit if you have time

1,183 Pageviews?!!
Hey, it's little but please take into account that I'm an introvert
I wonder if it was just me who contributed much on my devart pageviews.
but...wah...I've come this far....

The list of shounen manga at
The ones in red box are the ones I'm reading/following
It's a bit shocking to see that Mahou Sensei Negima falls under the shounen category since the majority of characters in it are girls.
Thus the [WTF?!]

The blogs in my bookmarks.
Lol, I haven't added Aneki and nee-san.
Gomen na
What was the point again?


Chocolate Trauma

To nee-chan who traumatized everyone with the Cadbury joke,
I found something that can relate:

If you get it, let's say this together...
I'll still eat Cadbury though

Ramadhan Begins

Ramadhan this year began with me surrounded by my family.

Those little souveniars are finally handed out and I see my sisters using it.
The potpuri has also been tested. It smells nice but burns out too fast.

^my accumulated animanga collection in KL.
I'm not sure if I'm starting to miss home there but I'm still constantly remembering it.
It's just so comfortable and fun to be with my family again...
laughing together...eating together...bumping into each other...sharing hugs...biting people...grop- eh...that's private

Chocolate Cake!
Nee-san and okaa-san went out and bought it~
So nice.
Arigatou nya~
To celebrate me getting full marks on my magazine and Imouto-chan getting #2 in class!'
Sorry, imouto-chan, there was only space for my name.

So...It's Ramadhan now.
Nee-chan wrote an entry about our first day [here]
It's full of pictures and I did a weird pose.
Second day of Ramadhan passed with chaos already.
*shameless laugh*
We woke a bit later and seemed to rush our Sahur a bit.
I think I was practically inhaling my food but I didn't have any serious thoracic accident.
When we broke fast even, we had to eat our kurma in the kitchen but we settled down into our joyful heap of laughter later on so it wasn't that bad.
There was pineapple today and I was very ecstatic.

^Mukuro's hairstyle resembles a pineapple if you look hard enough.
It's a bit disgusting to think like this but I felt like I ate Mukuro's hair.
I went on the weighing scale after that and it read 50kg. It's an ideal weight for me though.
Compared to yesterday; I, who was a 47, jumped to 52 after our session of breaking fast.
It's a bit embarrasing but it's nothing too bad.
In 2008, I weighed 48kg all-year-through.
I'm not too scared or overly-conscious about my weight since I've always thought I should pack more than I was. It's good for future child-bearing issues.
Yes, I'm a person who thinks about things like that already.
I imagine having a medium-sized family.
Kinda like mine now. With lots of girls.
3 is okay but the limit should be 5 probably.
I'd consider more if I marry early, hehe.
Okaa-san married when she was 23 and had Aneki around a year after that?

Hah...what am I talking about already?
All in all, 2 days have passed with nothing too bad happening. Let's see what tomorrow brings.

-fangirl rant starts here-

So I was on a spree today for 1827 fanfics but I didn't find much of what I want. I tried to finish reading 'Want Me'. It's guardians27 but I got pretty bored.
There wasn't much internet today but I still managed to dl APH from episode 13 to 30.
Since most of the APH episodes are around 4:59
lol, 1 second away from 5 min
so it didn't take long.
I finally get to hear Romi Paku more clearly since she's portraying Switzerland.
I'm such a happy fangirl now.
For some reasons, I feel overwhelmed when English speaks.
I don't know.
I really hate Uchiha Sasuke but his seiyuu just seems to make something tingle in me. Sugiyama Noriaki has such a unique voice that I can tell instantly from all others. Kinda like Romi Paku but Sugiyama-san is a guy.
I can't tell much guys apart, seriously.
It's like only Sugiyama Noriaki and Takahiro Sakurai.
I want to eat Moyashi(beansprout) next!
note: D.Gray-man's Allen Walker is nicknamed 'Moyashi'
for his lack in height.

The Return

lol, it's a bit too late to use this but whatever.
Finals just passed~ and I'm enjoying the sem break back home.
How many months has passed already since I was here?
The house still looks like it has always been.
Somehow, the 'home' aura given out here is much stronger than when I was at that condo.
But that is to be expected.
I still hold slight resentment though at the fact that the house resembled a rat's hideout during the night of my return.
Unable to fight the situation, I got coerced into cleaning up their mess a little.
Imouto-chan was the one who cleaned up the house anyway. lol.
If it had been a laundry with 40% of my clothes, it wouldn't have mattered if I was the one who had to hang them out but I only had my blouse in there.
The unfair feeling flairs a little more now that I'm reminiscing. Oh well.
What's passed has passed.
Still, I am not a person who can willingly clean up after somebody.
Not even myself.
All in all, the house has already looked neat so I shouldn't complain.
Yesterday, my aunt had to go for a CT scan at the hospital.
I tagged Okaa-san for a while until my cousin took over so that she could be there when they did it.
I went home with nee-san. Unexpectedly, I had quite an enjoyable time with her even though it was just a drive back and to pick up okaa-san.
...didn't work out how I wanted it.
There was no helping it though.
I originally planned to beg Okaa-san to let me go out on a last minute date with Seobang.
Tomorrow is Ramadhan after all.
but my male cousin fell from the roof and panic ensued on the other side.
I can't actually go out and have fun when a family member is in a fix, can I?
Nee-chan had also come down with a fever, so there goes our chaperone.
I feel bad for not informing the condition here to him but I'm kind of afraid he'd take all this as just me giving excuses.
What should I do?
Aneki is coming back tonight too.
...and I haven't handed everyone their little KL souveniars that I went out of my way to buy.
except Imouto-chan
could this be mere forgetfulness or an act of stupidity?
I haven't been doing much lately regarding my return home.
I indulged a lot on my hobbies though.
The internet speed here is remarkable. I'm ecstatic at how fast my downloads are going.
Regarding animanga:
-fangirling starts here-
Yeah, I'm concentrating on finishing dl-ing the stuff at blog126 but I'm getting caught up in dl-ing the 1827 and 6927. lol.
Before returning home, Anje and I watched Toradora up to the 13th episode. I can't give a complete review about that yet since I think I should watch it to the end before I give biased opinions.
Once I got home, I tried to catch up on my KHR reading. So far I've finished the Varia arch and entering the TYL arc. I stopped reading a day ago I think. It was starting to get tiring somehow and TYL Yamamoto is no longer there for me to ogle anyway.
I want dearly to see TYL Hibari and TYL Mukuro but I think they won't enter as soon as I'm hoping.
Yesterday, I've been acquinting myself with the KHR anime and seiyuus. The line-up for the seiyuus aren't very interesting as they're using fresh seiyuus.
I absolutely like 18, 27 and 69's seiyuus though.
Gah, 18 and 69 sound so cool!
Gokudera was pretty...unexpected however. The kind of voice that he had wasn't how I imagined it would have been when I first read KHR.
Not that it's bad.
Lambo and I-pin are cute too. Reborn has a charm too, I guess.
The KHR OST however...
I can't believe how AMAZING it was.
I'm thinking of searching for it at Animetech once I go on one of my weekend dates to Berjaya TS.
Kak Long won't be there to go out with me on those dates though. Her sem is finishing around the time I get back there
I hope Anje is free. We did agree to go buy that dress.
Recently also, because of the absolutely cool and fast internet line, I managed to download the APH comic strips.
I've begun to favor England and Austria so much more.
Hmm...what else...
Oh yeah!
D.Gray-man got a jumpstart return in Akamaru Jump last 17th Aug. There was like 40 pages to fangirl over. Hoshino-sensei's drawing style has changed again too and their uniform is a bit off. All the exorcists are also getting separate missions.
Talking about separate,
Allen got separated from Link
*fangirl whimper*
Plus, the Earl's got horns under his hat. It was to be expected but it kind of surprised me since Hoshino-sensei has been playing jokes about there being rabbit ears under that tall hat.
Hibari-san, please bite me too
...just not to death.
note: Hibari's favourite line is "I'll bite you to death"

My Own Tutorial

So yeah. I'm going to do a little tutorial incase the future me forgot how to do it.
It's a "How-to-colour-flash-photographed-drawings" tutorial.
I'll be using a simple drawing for this tutorial:

Sawada Tsunayoshi looking OOC

First is to open it in photoshop lol.

Second, I resized the image from 1600X1200 to 800X600.
This is just for the lulz as I don't want too much data for a rather empty drawing

Then, I change the level(ctrl+l) so that the outline is more darker and the background is more brighter. It'll turn out like something below. It comes in handy for the wand tool.

For some reason, I like to work on a new layer and leave the background layer untouched incase I do something wrong with the new layer.
So here, I duplicate the background and select the new layer.

With the new layer, from the blending menu, choose 'Multiply' and you'll notice the picture darkening.
This helps when colouring as the lineart will seem untouched later when colouring.

Insert a new layer beneath the lineart layer and colour it with any colour of your choice. It doesn't matter what as this layer is just to help act as a new background for erasing the flash effects on the picture.

Now, for the erasing part, select the lineart layer.
I use the erasing tool to well, erase all the unneeded dark lines

For erasing, there are 2 options. One, is the eraser tool. Two, is the combination of the wand tool and the eraser tool.
Below is the demonstration of both tools:

Using both techniques is better because certain lines are too hard for the wand tool to distinguish.

This is the end product.

For colouring, have a reference picture near.
For this picture, I used Mukuro for the skin colour. Notice that I pointed out the dark and light tone.

For the skin base, I use the light tone.
Under the lineart layer, I made a new layer for the skin colouring.

for the dark tone, first I make a new layer. After that, I change it into a clipping mask.
From the menu bar: Layer -> create clipping mask(alt+ctrl+g)

the layer will look like this

From there, it's much easier to colour the dark tones as it won't run outside of the light tone's territory.

After that, I blur it for the lulz.
Like, seriously.

For the hair, the same process is repeated. Only this time, I use Tsuna.

End process of fixing up the hair.

Now the sleeves

This is the final product . Pretty average but I like how it turned out. As for the floral decoration in the background, it's from the freestyle symbols.
I think
My first tutorial. Yay.

Twice the Work

BTW, I won't be having internet access from this evening until next Wednesday probably. Our kind hearted broadband owner is going to return home

"I feel just like shooting her(me)"
somehow...Kak Long is always saying that when she sees how free I am at the moment.
Lol. Can't blame her though.
I'm entirely free of any assignments now and is just basically waiting for finals to come and get it over with.
I'm not spending this free time doing nothing though!
I've been immersing myself in my hobbies again.
but now I'm focusing on improving my colouring.
I'm doing a lot of KHR fanarts at the moment
*is a total 1827 and 6927 fangirl*
Because I didn't have any scanner, I had to capture it with my phone's camera.
Lol, I didn't know a random 2.0megapixel could satisfy me.
Align CenterThe early sketches of my earliest KHR fanart

I lined it in class 2 days ago when everyone was presenting in front.
Lol, sly fox.
Oh yeah and the signs they're holding say:
from left: "tsunayoshi desu!" "hibari" "rokudo mukuro~<3"
It's their names.

This was the one I coloured in PS but the art was from the un-lined version of the three so the lines didn't compliment the art as much as I wanted.
This was just trial colouring anyway.

This one was another drawing I did that I captured with my phone.
My SonyE S302 is now working as my scanner.
I'm so thankful I at least have that.

The coloured version of it.
Lol, the dimness quality of the picture taken by the phone camera really gave the picture a gradient look.

The thing with having my phone as my scanner is that it takes longer for me to render the picture as I need to erase the paper wrinkles, darken the lines, erase the dark texture on certain subjects that I think is inappropriate.
All in all, it's an entirely new experience and it eats up on my time quite a lot. I'm starting to get the hang of it though
Still, when I get back home, I'm going to properly scan things. A lot of the drawings I took pictures of came out blurry
I'm also enjoying reading KHR

Full Marks

Okay, first of all, I've already told a lot of people the good news and people were happy for me.
The first thing I need to say about this is: Alhamdulillah
I kept chanting that throughout the bus ride home.

The day started fine actually.
I felt no pressure while I was on my way to class. I arrived a bit earlier than the norm and bought myself a bottle of something sugary so that I'd keep awake.
When I saw Nadia, a close classmate of mine, she seemed a bit stressed about her attire.
Our lecturer strictly said that we are to present in a formal attire.
As for me, today was my first time going to class in baju kurung.
Lol. I felt nothing weird about it though.

"Are you nervous?" Nadia asked me.
To be polite and understanding and not come out as someone overly confident, I nodded.
Time passed though and somehow along the way, I began to feel the pressure.

I was pretty confident about my magazine actually because it came out looking like a magazine, as plain as it is, and I was very careful about the overall layout until the very end. I didn't procrastinate much this time and I was really sure that I fitted most of the criteria my lecturer was looking for. I made sure that the colours matched well and I made sure no words run short.

Hell, I even wrote two articles by myself
Even when she said she wasn't going to read it anyway.

When she arrived, my magazine was the first one that she took a look at and I grew pretty conscious when she said nothing about it.

A lot of students arrived late today and Nadia wanted to use that oppurtunity to save herself from being embarrased in front of a large crowd. I thought about it too but I didn't really mind either way. Somehow though, Nadia got into a nervous-wreck right at the beginning and insisted that I do it first.

I was like: 'WTH? You're the one who wants to escape from being embarrased so why do I have to be first?'

In the end, when even Khairul(male classmate who I met during orientation) said, "Let the japanese girl do it first", I got up and really did it.

I was the first one to present my magazine...

...and I ultimately sucked at it.

I didn't really know what to say but I said what I felt like I should say and after positively worrying the lecturer because I was trembling too much, I said my thanks and sat down. After that, people presented and I only gave half my attention to most of it. I didn't feel like turning depressed if I see their more creative design.

It's not that I'm being a show-off or proud but I noticed that most of them didn't seem to put much thought into what they were doing and they didn't take it as seriously as I thought we all should have. One of them even blamed the printing shop for her own mistakes. I felt kind of sad seeing some of them putting in just random things in and calling it a magazine worth buying.

I'm glad that I chose Cosplay as my theme.
Because it was something that I liked, I put all my heart and effort into it. I think I would have been pretty insulted if I got a bad mark.

So, once the last person presented, our lecturer called up three names. None of it was mine. I could only remember 'Ikhlas' and she announced that she wanted their magazines because they got full marks. My heart crumbled to pieces then and there because I thought that my magazine was not worthy of full marks eventhough I put in so much of my heart and sweat into it.

Then, she suddenly looked directly at me and said, "Ikhlas. You're Ikhlas right?"
I was dumbfounded. Literally
I had been mistaken for someone else.

Now I'm happy though because it turns out I was the one who got that full marks
Yay Me again!

Cosparty Done!

Something good happened today!
But before I tell you that, let's share some random stuff.

Chocolate Ice Blend
I'm totally obsessed with this drink. I can't help but buy it everytime we go out to buy dinner.
It tastes great!

Because that good thing happened today, I was able to practice on my rusty colouring.
I've already submitted it to devArt.
I miss the scanner

Kak Nor(20)
A classmate who I've properly acquinted with.
I helped her with her magazine.
By the way, my lovely family,
it brings me great warmth and pride to tell you that because there was a desperate need of random family pictures, I put some of us in her magazine.
The picture turned out good but I couldn't get a proper picture of it.
Oh yeah, nee-san, you've become a young mother.

Oh yeah, that fanart I finally came around to doing!
Yay 692718!
Please ignore this deranged fangirl

Now, for the big news!
I finished that magazine!!

The contents.
I even put in a disclaimer.
Oh yeah, my name was also inserted as the Art director I think.

Ysabel's interview

cont. of Ysabel's interview and Anime Expo

Action photography.
Lol-ling at the picture of Allen dragging Cross out of a liquor store.

My centerspread article. I wrote it myself.

Anime news and random cosplay stuff

My pride! The Dream of Doll cover.
I also wrote this article myself.
It was really crappy but I don't really care
I really like how the poster turned out.
It was simply amazing
*wants to keep it for herself*

DoD poster and Katekyo Hitman Reborn

KHR cosplay and the back cover.
Yay me!

~*About this Blog Owner*~

An introvert imaginist suffering claustrophobia, ADD and hemaphobia and sudden social reclusion. Enjoys drawing, watching animations, singing badly, daydreaming, surfing the internet.

Appears harmless and most of the time, semi-transparent. Easily flustered when in company, overly shy, prefers slinking into the shadow and wouldn't be shocked if you didn't notice or recognise her.

Mostly hovers at Tumblr, Deviantart, and Drawr. Basically doesn't have any other life except as a partially-sane fangirl. Has a tendency to doodle at empty spaces.
Specialize in digital imagery and is currently taking Diploma in Multimedia Application. Has an extreme liking to multimedia editing softwares and photography.

Warning: May suffer severe sugar rush at times - even without consumption of high-glucose content food...and I know Wapanese! Beware!


I am also an artist of somekind