Full Marks

Okay, first of all, I've already told a lot of people the good news and people were happy for me.
The first thing I need to say about this is: Alhamdulillah
I kept chanting that throughout the bus ride home.

The day started fine actually.
I felt no pressure while I was on my way to class. I arrived a bit earlier than the norm and bought myself a bottle of something sugary so that I'd keep awake.
When I saw Nadia, a close classmate of mine, she seemed a bit stressed about her attire.
Our lecturer strictly said that we are to present in a formal attire.
As for me, today was my first time going to class in baju kurung.
Lol. I felt nothing weird about it though.

"Are you nervous?" Nadia asked me.
To be polite and understanding and not come out as someone overly confident, I nodded.
Time passed though and somehow along the way, I began to feel the pressure.

I was pretty confident about my magazine actually because it came out looking like a magazine, as plain as it is, and I was very careful about the overall layout until the very end. I didn't procrastinate much this time and I was really sure that I fitted most of the criteria my lecturer was looking for. I made sure that the colours matched well and I made sure no words run short.

Hell, I even wrote two articles by myself
Even when she said she wasn't going to read it anyway.

When she arrived, my magazine was the first one that she took a look at and I grew pretty conscious when she said nothing about it.

A lot of students arrived late today and Nadia wanted to use that oppurtunity to save herself from being embarrased in front of a large crowd. I thought about it too but I didn't really mind either way. Somehow though, Nadia got into a nervous-wreck right at the beginning and insisted that I do it first.

I was like: 'WTH? You're the one who wants to escape from being embarrased so why do I have to be first?'

In the end, when even Khairul(male classmate who I met during orientation) said, "Let the japanese girl do it first", I got up and really did it.

I was the first one to present my magazine...

...and I ultimately sucked at it.
-_-;;

I didn't really know what to say but I said what I felt like I should say and after positively worrying the lecturer because I was trembling too much, I said my thanks and sat down. After that, people presented and I only gave half my attention to most of it. I didn't feel like turning depressed if I see their more creative design.

It's not that I'm being a show-off or proud but I noticed that most of them didn't seem to put much thought into what they were doing and they didn't take it as seriously as I thought we all should have. One of them even blamed the printing shop for her own mistakes. I felt kind of sad seeing some of them putting in just random things in and calling it a magazine worth buying.

I'm glad that I chose Cosplay as my theme.
Because it was something that I liked, I put all my heart and effort into it. I think I would have been pretty insulted if I got a bad mark.

So, once the last person presented, our lecturer called up three names. None of it was mine. I could only remember 'Ikhlas' and she announced that she wanted their magazines because they got full marks. My heart crumbled to pieces then and there because I thought that my magazine was not worthy of full marks eventhough I put in so much of my heart and sweat into it.

Then, she suddenly looked directly at me and said, "Ikhlas. You're Ikhlas right?"
I was dumbfounded. Literally
I had been mistaken for someone else.

Now I'm happy though because it turns out I was the one who got that full marks
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Yay Me again!